heartless

I am a heartles......................~ (what sort of feeling is this)
I am really do not know either

sometimes there's a feeling of waiting something but you do not know what are you expecting
I called my self lovable but i still do know what is love


I throw all my mind in difficult sentences, just like i do not want everyone get my meaning
sometimes i'm so glad if i can write my real mind

I've been trapped in my mind maze, even me, I do not know my real meaning

too much thing I want but I do not know which is I really want
life have been weird, everyone has been walked to another way
but there's still me, a girl who do not know the way that she have to choose

I'm waiting for a hand, big shape of hand that can take me out from the darkness
I'm waiting for a smile, huge smile that can make me smile
I'm waiting for myself (me to do what i want)

I'm a heartless ......... (speechless)