you're the star

there are lots of stars in the sky,
but i only starring at one

when the star has gone or moved
maybe no one realize it,
because there are too many star in the sky
but how i don't know it if...

I'm starring it all over my life

aku, malam, dan bintang

malam ini, mungkin hanya di malam ini kegelapan tidak terasa menakutkan lagi
karena awan tebal mendung di hatiku bahkan lebih gelap daripada lampu yang padam di kamarku

malam ini, mungkin hanya akan ada kesunyian yang terdengar
tak ada debur ombak maupun suara jangkrik
hanya ada aku aku dan aku dalam kesunyian malam mencari jati diri

isak - isak kecil ikut menyertai perpindahan jam
mungkin inilah panas yang dimaksud sang penulis, panas yang tak tertahankan hingga semua mengalir
apa adanya

mungkin tak ada yang tahu, hanya malam dan aku
mungkin tak ada yang mengerti, mereka hanya bisa berkata dan aku pun kehabisan kata

dahulu bayangan itu terus ada dalam terang yang kubuat,
namun setelah gelap aku baru mengerti apa itu bayangan
sesuatu yang disebut kepedihan

tidur, berharap untuk lari dari dunia
walau hanya semalam biarkan aku berada di dunia mimpi

seeking for a fairy world

lots of tweets in twitter about this, but maybe not enough to express all my feeling
it was so unreachable feeling
even myself,  it's so difficult

surely I want a fairy world and I need it soon or not
sometimes when you dream and dream, well it become a start of heartache
the heartache that have no ending

every girl deserve a fairy tale and a prince charming on it
but fairy God doesn't always come to a right person
doesn't it? 

















door by door was opened
waiting was the first option, but how if there was another option
a happiness or a safety?

chose always make other people hurt,
and i just did it perhaps
a guilty is must and always come by struggle

I just think why in this world to live and why in this body to breath
where a unique doesn't count in
where a robot's heart live
a body that lost her wings to fly anymore

hell of damn, time was count and everyone can't run
I have no more words for you ...

we only can be heartless